Analemma (Performed at Unwanted Words Awards 2023)

Hum

Hum aur tum

Me

Me and you


Hum

Hum saath hein

Us

We are together


What if hum aur tum

Me and you

Is a song we sing without opening the mouth

Because the opening would actually predict closure


Or What if hum aur tum

Me and you

Is a song we sing without opening the mouth

Because this indeterminacy

Of words unknown

Is the most devoted gesture I could offer you


This is my devotion


Sentence us to death

With words of better futures

A collective rite of passage

That is a righteous passage

For a change


Pass me the names of the deceased

And entangle them with my tongue

Spread the word

And the worlds

Of our beloved deceased

Unleash the umami

Taste of utopia

Marrying our saliva


Didn’t you know that

Lately

You have been listening to etherical voices

Vibrating through

The debris and the ruins

Of children’s dreams ruined


Didn’t you know that

Lately

You have been inhaling the ashes

of burning hijabs


Didn't you know that

That the raindrops dripping your neck

Are the reincarnated tears of the dispossessed

The ones who left home

Found land

Yet remained homeless


Didn’t you know

We live in a world

Where veins have become pipelines

And blood a commodity

Hemoglobin fuel

Ruby gasoline


How do you build genuine belonging?

Can difference be the portal

Replacing the border?

I crave for you to be my holder

Swallow hope

And digest hope’s failure

Through the communal organ


I prayed to be akin

To your most neglected history

Stitch wings on your memories

And fly me across infinite fields of possibilities


Show me

How things used to be done

Which songs used to be song

How time used to be passed

Show me

Queer ancestral pizzaz

We’re here


One groof at the time

Extending our existence


One groof at the time

Offering resistance


One groof at the time

The path of least resistance


‘’How do I narrate our stories In the language of the oppressors?’’

I asked

Laughingly, They said:

‘’Child, it’s written in your feet

so go ahead

In rhythm we meet’’